Vampire books never really interested me. Although I am an avid reader who devours books, I never was into this topic. However, when a friend suggested the Twilight series and raved about it, I ventured out and bought the first book. I was hooked. I talked my husband into buying me the next two installments for my birthday, and needless to say, I think he regretted it. I neglected pretty much all of my responsibilities as I fell in love with Bella, Edward, and even Jacob. For me, the books were about forbidden love and a love triangle, not vampires versus werewolves. I read the first three books in less than a week and quickly cruised through the last.
When the first movie came out, I convinced my husband to go with me. Of course I never enjoy movies as much as books, so I was somewhat unimpressed by the first movie. I figured, though, that the production company wanted to see what sort of interest would be generated before investing huge amounts of money into the second, third, fourth–and much to my dismay–fifth movie. So, I told myself I would give the movies a second chance. It also helped that a group of us from work started a movie club and decided to make Twilight part of our “must see” list. I enjoyed New Moon, Eclipse, and Breaking Dawn Part I. At the time, I was even psyched about part II and was bummed that I would have to wait so long.
November 2012 rolled around, and something happened to me. My Twi”light” burned out. I have no idea what happened. I even had three offers to go see the movie, and I just did not feel like it. For some reason, I lost all interest and desire to see the last installment. Crazy–I know. I am still trying to figure myself out and determine what went wrong. All of my friends raved about the last movie and told me that I missed out. But, I still am not feeling it.
What happened? My best explanations come down to two main reasons: Breaking Dawn never should have been broken into two separate movies, and Kristen Stewart never should have cheated on Rob Pattinson. Do I have a problem? YES! I do not know why, but for some reason–even though I am a grown adult–I become so attached to the characters that their outside lives affect me as well as their movie/film/TV lives. I still cannot enjoy a Jennifer Anniston movie; all I can think of is Rachel. So, did the movie company dim my light by prolonging the story, or did Kristen Stewart’s infidelity ruin it for me?
To tell the truth, I still have no clue. I am interested in knowing if anyone else feels the way I do. Although I would not consider myself a Twi”Hard” like some, I was deeply invested in this story and the characters. What happened to me remains a mystery to me and everyone around me. I guess I will watch it when it comes out on Apple TV, pay-per-view, Red Box, or something other. I really wish my light had not gone out. I feel so disappointed, and part of it is my inability to find a reason within myself.
