I’m really surprised my husband still wanted to have a baby with me after the year I spent on Clomid. Anyone who has ever taken the drug probably knows what I am talking about all too well. For those who have not, some of the major side effects of Clomid are irritability, mood swings, anxiety and depression. What they should say is that it is like your worst PMS, amplified, by a factor of about 48,000. The emotional rollercoaster is that bad.
Clomid, also known as clomiphene citrate, is a drug typically used to induce ovulation in women who do not ovulate regularly and are trying to conceive. Women with PCOS, or polycystic ovary syndrome, are some of the most frequent recipients of Clomid prescriptions. And in many women it does work well. However, most research indicates that if you have not conceived within your first three months on Clomid, you are not likely to do so and you should consider other fertility treatments.
I spent an entire year, a miserable year, on Clomid because the doctor that I had at the time was either unaware of the latest research on the drug’s effectiveness after the first three months or he didn’t care. Here are some things I learned that helped me to survive the emotional ups and downs that came with the drug.
Make others aware
One of the most important things you can do is let your loved ones know up front that you are on a powerful drug that will affect you badly. It doesn’t excuse your anger or hostility, but maybe those who care about you will be more understanding and forgiving if they know you haven’t just lost your mind permanently.
Get out of the house
If at all possible, go for a walk and get away from the house when you feel the tension rising. You may have to take several walks a day, but it is better to get out and cool down than to stay in the house and blow up at your husband or family.
Leave your desk at lunch
If you work outside the home, make sure you leave your desk and get outdoors at lunch time and every break. Fresh air, sunshine and an escape from your workplace surroundings can help you get through the next few hours easier than anything else I know.
Treat yourself kindly
Whether you want a piece of really decadent chocolate or a warm bubble bath at the end of the day, make sure and treat yourself. You are going through some hard stuff, and Clomid only exacerbates the negative feelings you may already be having over failed cycles. Give yourself a break.
Ask for help
If you feel like you are just not going to make it through, ask for help. Talk to your husband, your mom, your best friend. Open up about how you are feeling and just bawl if you need to get things out. Try to give yourself a day off the day that you start your period if you need it. Each failed cycle hurts, and it is okay to grieve.
Get off the drug
If things are too horrible on Clomid, and for some women they definitely are, get off the drug. There are other options, some with fewer emotional side effects than Clomid. If you think you can make it, remember that pregnancy or not, you should only have to go through three months. After that, it’s time to look at other options anyway.
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